Lord, Kill it

I hope you are all well and God has Kept you. I pray that His peace has been upon you and His love has engulfed you.

I have been so busy hence time has been limited but that is still not a good enough excuse. I promise to do better, and be better. At the worst scenario two posts a month but as the Holy Spirit leads, I will accept His order.

The reason I have been away is because I have been handling personal issues that were heavy and shook me to the core. There is a difference between knowing that the fight will be there and being in this battlefield. This field where the devil sends his best fighters and you know all you have is in you. The battle has varied since the start of this year. Some days are too intense, others, not so much that if you are not careful, you may end up lukewarm. The devil is like a roaring lion and when he goes too silent sometimes, prepare for a bigger battle. March and April were the worst but as you know, we always start from a position of victory.

Yet, in all these things, we are more than conquerors (Romans 8:37)

Most of the time, we always conceptualize battles as things that will come to us. The scenarios are always something coming at us. Something that is external. My battles have been more internal. And beware, these can kill you. The battles of the mind, heart and the internals is one as a Christian you have to be well prepared for. Yes, you can quote scriptures and lead Bible study but can you remember to apply this when in a battlefield. When the devil comes for everything about you, are you strong enough? When he comes for your calling, when he makes you question your anointing and the promises God already confirmed concerning your life and purpose? Are you ready to face him eye to eye and tell him, “you picked a wrong one? ” and back it up with action?

When I rededicated my life, I knew I got myself in a battlefield for the rest of my life. I remember asking God to train my hands for war. To equip me that I may be ready when that day comes. Just as David says, “He teacheth my hands to war, so that a bow of steel is broken by mine arms” (Psalms 18:34)

What I wasn’t mentally prepared for was the battle from within. That battle that requires total submission of the flesh to the Spirit. That battle that comes for you till you go back and ask God, did I hear that from you? That you start giving God conditions and ultimatums to reconfirm what He already confirmed through His word and through witnesses. John 10:10 says, “The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly“

This thief came for my purpose, my anointing, my relationships, my family, my business and my life. It was choking depressing and tiring since at first I had not really seen it that way so I fought back instinctively in the way I thought was best. At that moment I didn’t know that was the same reaction that the enemy expected. And he worked me up thoroughly. There is a huge reason why in 1 Thessalonians 5:16- 17, Paul says, ‘Rejoice always, ^{pray without ceasing}..”

For the moment you cease, the thief understands that the watch is off guard and attacks you first subtly then goes more full force. And what I have learnt is that he will attack you with what is familiar. What you know. What you entertain. And he will come for everything. Absolutely.

I have learnt to lay bare each and everything to God so He can order everything. I have learnt to let the Holy Spirit dig deep into those places I felt were too private. I have learnt that my spiritual antennae can never flip, they have to remain alert. I have also learnt the importance of having people that pray with you and for you. People who cover you when you cannot cover yourself, people who hold you together in prayer.

“For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.” Ephesians 6:12

But the biggest thing I have learnt is to allow God to take full control.

To empty me of all the things that are not of Him

To kill everything that is in that is not of Him.

And how amazing it has been going back to my Author. How amazing

Lord, Kill it.