I know the tomorrow doesn’t fascinate you any longer. I know you dread waking up. You are anxious of what tomorrow may bring.
I know the tears you have wept. I know how much you wish it was different. I know what do now is no longer passion.
I know you have had that conversation with God. You have asked Him to take you home. You are done with all these earthly treasures. You want to be lifted higher than these problems.
I know you already think nobody cares. That your exit will not affect anyone. That it will be much easier for everyone..
I know that the thought of walking in the Sun scares you. I know the walls are your best friend, they hold memories no other soul will ever know. I know there are days they seem like they are talking to you.
Oh and those accusing fingers. Those that point more to them than to you. Those that glare at you through Windows waiting to break you. You can even feel them matter the curses. Of why you are taking this so gracefully
I know of that brokenness. Of how you know you will never be the same. Of how you classify yourself as damaged, a class you never thought existed. That place no one can do more damage.
I also know that you don’t need to go through it alone. Yes, it may feel that there is no one, or there may be no one. The emptiness may be so deep but I know of someone who can give you all that you are looking and more.
How do I know
He did it for me. He did not just make me new creature, He took away the old. The pain, the mishaps, the mistakes and behold I became a new creature( 2 Corithians 5:17). He chose me and I accepted Him. As my own personal saviour . He redeemed and restored me. There are some areas too dark you may be in, He will come for you physically. Deep down in the trenches.
But there is a catch 22.
He only works on free will. He wants you. You have to want him. You have to invite him in. He knows.
And He will take care of you. He is a good good father. He has your best interests by heart. Oh if only you would know the things He has in store for you.
Call on Him, search for him when he can still be found and He will be found. Call on Him ( Jeremiah 33:3)
The plans He has for you are perfect. Plans that will prosper you. Plans that will not harm you. Plans that will give you hope and future ( Jeremiah 29:11)
He created you for a purpose. And I pray He reveals it to you. So you may know you are not merely existing. You are here for something that is much bigger that only you can accomplish .
You Matter. Even when it doesn’t feel like so now, you Matter. You are our superman/ superwoman in your own capacity.
You are loved
You are worthy
You Matter, Yes You Doo.