Whoever said time is a healer, was right to an extent. Time too is such a gossip, it always tells.
It has been quite long since I sat down and wrote. Today, I touch on a Subject that is so close to my heart. Learning to let time do its part.
We may argue that time does not really heal, it just blurs. That the pain does not go away, it is archived for future reference. Well, that reference may never be made, that is the beauty of it.
In all my heartbreaks, I never thought I needed time. Why would I need time and it was their loss, not mine? Moving on swiftly was the next stop. And swiftly I did. That explains why I still had major attachments to people I should have cut out completely. That’s why they still had a backdoor to my heart that could easily be accessed and could mess up the system once important and relevant data was accessed.
But, not this time. This time I wasn’t heartbroken, I was crushed. Into little small pieces that I couldn’t pick up even if I tried. I had lost so much in a short period. That included a human being that never saw the light of day. I ran to all the sources that used to help. Work, holiday, therapy but none could stick it through. I wanted to be fine. Right there, right then. I didn’t have the luxury of time. I wanted to be formatted like it did not happen. The more I pushed, the more I got frustrated, the more I sank into depression. I thought I could handle it. By myself. How wrong I was.
When I rededicated my life to Christ, a deep peace came over me. I realized I didn’t need to fix anything. Let alone fix myself. These had been after three months of therapy with no breakthrough. I asked God to heal and fix me. It was not as fast as I had anticipated. As fast as I wanted. The lesson had to be learnt. It had to be in a way that I ended up appreciating the whole experience.
The panel beating process is never easy. Every good thing that happens requires time. Sometimes enormous amounts, but it all ends up in something so beautiful. When the creator is at work, the creation lays still. The creation allows work to continue..
I have come to learn that God’s timing is the best. Ten thousand years is like a day in His presence. As humans, we seek to have instant gratification. The answer is not in the product but in the process. The process shapes and determines the product. And any given process requires time.
In some situations, you just need time to restrategize. In others, you need time to calm down. In some, You need time to rest while in others, you need time to heal.
Do not rush into things. Do not rush into engagements. You are not late. You don’t need to be like everyone else. Your path is different. Your journey is unique. It takes longer for a special order to be made.
For any seed to grow, time is needed. In most situations, you have been planted. In that darkness, grow your taproots, then blossom into something enormous and great. You are well capable.
This time you are giving is letting it go to God. It is enthroning Him in the highest place, your heart. It is letting Him take preeminence. It is letting Him take all His Glory. We only live in His time. Things happen in His time. If you need healing, He is the balm of Gilead. If you need a major breakthrough, He created heaven and earth. What can He not do? For you to be what He wants you to be, you have to go through His process. That process will including removing all that is not of Him from you. It is not an easy one. It is amazing though.
Whatever it is that you want to happen. Give it to God. Give it time. Time to process. Time to change you. Time to perfect you( Hebrews 10:14).
God has all the answers and as Ecclesiastes 3:11 says
He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end. (NIV)
He surely will make all things beautiful. In His Time.